Not really over

I feel the keys under my fingers
I hear the words in my head
I know I shouldn't go down this road again
But somehow I justify it again
and again
and again

When will this cycle break?
When will I accept that its over
Never gonna happen again
He doesn't love you anymore
as if he ever did
he probably never did

So my heart shutters and fails
And my mind shuts down and cries
But my fingers move to push me
Down that road again
and again
and again