Can't let go

Sitting
At home, alone
Just thinking of how to trip you up,
To make you fall for me again.
About how I miss the days when you told me I was beautiful
And where I could call you mine
And I could talk to you without censoring or feeling crazy.

Then I get a message from him.
He's crazy and obsessive and slightly creepy,
but when I look at him, and the way he does things,
I realize I'm almost like him.
Trying to force you to love me
When you just want to be rid of me.
And I can't bring myself to change
And to finally let you go, go, go.