Today Into Tomorrow

Heavy eyelids
Tingling skin
I fight against myself
Begging for more time to stay awake
I know there will be more
Tomorrow
But it's so hard to let go of
Today

Fall Discontent

Someone take me for a drive through the winding roads
and the cold weather.
Lets explore the forests of the north,
where the mist clings to our skin and hair.
We can lay back when the sun goes down
and count the stars through the tree limbs.
Why can't we just run away for a weekend?
To the place where there is peace in the rain and the wind.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 30

-Disrespect-

You're shutting down
My words
Invalidating my thoughts
And feelings
Exactly what we know
We should not do.
You question my apathetic
View of things lately,
Not knowing
That it's you who caused it.
The reason
Why I bury myself
In meaningless lines,
Why I stay in bed
All day.
You're shutting down
My words
And killing all respect
I once had for you.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 29

-Illogically Lazy Sunday-

Logically this day was a waste.
A day lost to the void-
The void of laziness and apathy.
But for me
This day was needed.
To recharge and to be uncaring
And to take a break.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 28

-My Girls-

 I love my girlies
They are my family and loves
They are my lifeline

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 27

-Change-

All I want is to change the world.
One person
At a time.
My words CAN make a difference.
My music, my voice, my life
They can all make you see-
See the damage we've done.
The history we've caused.
We can change the world.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 26

-Mess of a Week-

I draw the poison out

With reflection

And tears.

Curling up in a ball

Of brightly colored pajamas

And bedding.

Clothes strewn about the room,

Shoes piled against the wall,

Dishes in the sink.

I make no move

To clean 

My mess of a week.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 25

-Wednesday Evening-

Pitter
Patter
Drip
Drip
Drip
Rain is falling outside my window
While I sit,
Uncomfortably inside,
Pondering karma and aching joints.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 24

-The Maddening Hours-

Hours stretching
on and on;
Fingers tapping
non-beats;
Pen sketching-
chicken scratch.

My mind is
numbing,
slowly,
like noxious gas
putting my mind
in a haze.

Relief is nowhere
in sight.
No short rest
could break
the monotony.

Please,
show me an escape hatch,
so I can crawl out
into the daylight.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 23

-Giving Up-

I'm giving up
On trying to keep up
With things I don't really
Care much about.

I'm giving up
On trying to bring
Originality and sweet rhythm
To my verse.

I'm giving up
On trying to find
The truth that hides
Behind each of your words.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 22

-Language-

I'm struggling
to find the words
to express how beautiful
and terrifying
the world seems.
I dip into my unconscious-
desperate for language
that will do justice.
But maybe words
are never enough
to describe this world.
What if all we have
is each fleeting memory
of life?

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 21

-What Will Happen?-

Looking forward
Into the future
Full of promise
And fear.

What will happen
If we don't change?
If we don't plan?
What will happen?

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 20

-An Evening Hike-

Evening falling quickly through the trees
As we stumble and smash our way through.
We are mere guests
In Mother Natures home.
We've come to enjoy the sun's decent
Over the lapping waters of the beach.
Only to return to our homes
Once the darkness of night has fallen.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 19

-The Smell of You-

The unique scent
Clinging desperately to the dress on my floor
Makes me want to weep.
Never realizing how aware
I've become of you.
And how just that smell,
However briefly,
Can make me want to see you-
To be held by you-
To inhale your very presence.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 18

-Too-

A long day of unwanted tasks.
Too long.
An evening of girl talk.
Too much laughter.
Procrastinating tasks.
Too many.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 17

-My Talent?-

Is talent a birthright?
Or are we all equal?
Is my success
A product of my upbringing?
Did God-mine or yours or theirs-
Give me this gift;
Waiting to be unwrapped
By an eager child?
My talent is not measurable.
There is no wrong or right.
All that maters
Is that it IS.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 16

-The Future's Secrets-

Looking towards the future
To when my dreams
Become reality.
A shiver runs up my spine
With the anticipation
Of what might be.
Will I succeed?
Will I fail?
Only time
Will tell.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 15

-Brunch-

Sunshine, laughing friends
Lazy Sunday morning brunch
Nothing can compare

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 14

-Cast Party-

Drooping eyes
And tired limps
Weighing me down.
As the daylight comes to a close
My day has just started.
We perform and stress
For weeks and weeks
Just for this one night.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 13

-Friday The Thirteenth-

The bad luck day
That comes so very few times a year-
It's all superstition they say
But what do you believe?
They never think it will happen to them
Until it does.
Thank you Friday the 13th
For giving us something to fight for.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 12

-Theater-

Shows opening night
Adrenaline-sweaty palms
Heart beats so very fast

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 11

-Cold Spring Evenings-

All I want to do on these cold spring evenings
Is to lay down next to you
And feel your soft breath on my skin.
As we stare upwards
At the sky or the ceiling or into the unfathomable abyss
Just listening to the subtle inhale and exhale of one another.
That's all I want on these cold spring evenings.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 10

-What Went Wrong?-

You don't say
That you don't want to talk.
But I can see it
In the way you don't look at me
And brush me off.

It didn't used to be like this.
Struggling to explain
What went wrong.
But there's not even a chance
To explain.

Now all my time is spent
Wishing I could talk
To you.
And feeling like
I let it go on too long.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 9

-The Field-

A clam breeze

Over my hot skin.

My sun soaked limbs 

Finding relief in the wind.

Music from a guitar

And laughter from those around me.

The sounds rising to meet me

Through the soft air.

The scent of grass and earth

Mixing with the faint smell of smoke.

From fires, and cigarets

And other unknown places.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 8

-Easter Sunday-

Sun beats down on my dry
scarred
pale legs.

Easter Sunday's come and gone.
Marked only by a tan line
and some progress in a book.

Notes stumble, forming my loud
cracking
slurred voice.

Easter Sunday's ending now.
Marked by music
and an ice cream treat.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 7

-Dream World-

My dream world.
Where I live in the night
And morning hours.
The place that's filled with unconscious
Wishes and ideas.

I walked there last night.
For so long
That I almost lost my way home.
But I know it wouldn't matter
Because I'd always
Have a place there.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 6

-Mother-

Forty nine years ago
The world welcomed you
Into it's arms.
And there it's cradled you
Ever since.
As you grew
And grayed
And gave.
While you watched the world grow with you.

Some twenty years and a few months ago
You welcomed me
With the world
Into your arms.
And there you've cradled me
Ever since.
As I've argued
And learned
And taken.
While you helped me to grow with you.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 5

-The Fire-

The fire in my veins
roaring to life
with a single spark
from you.

Building intensely,
the flames
licking at my core
until I feel I'm burned alive.

With nothing to quench
the charred and blackened
emptiness the fire leaves,
except for more flames.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 4

-Mediocre Poet-

I read back
Over the words of my past.
I challenge myself to feel
As deeply as I once did.
Pushing for the spark
Of memory and internal fire.

But I find myself falling
Short of myself.
Still counting lines
And words and letters.
Still not letting the
Intoxicating flow of words wash over me.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 3

-Washington Rain-

I thought spring had finally sprung
And that after a day of work
And sitting still
I'd get a few hours of sunshine.

But I stepped outside
Into the wetness
And the gloom
And the darkness
Of a cold Washington rain.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 2

-Mood Killer-

Failure
Intrudes into my mind
Scaring away my hopes of success.
Responsibility
Dampens the sunshine
On a bright day of spring.
Obligation
Snuffs out the flame
That burned inside me not long ago.

NaPoWriMo 2012 Day 1

-Breaking Things Off-

Thinking of how
To get out the words.
How to broach a subject
That's so negative and sure to cause pain.
This is how I start my month
Causing pain and leaving scars.
Turning myself,
Slowly, into someone I never wanted to be.

Death

Death crushing on my soul
A dark shadow
Struggling to drown the light.

My tears hold themselves
Tight behind my eyelids
Not falling.

I must be strong
For those who battled the shadow
Hand to hand.

For those who lost
A fellow warrior
On the battle field.

Now I must make a call
To one who must enter the fray
To fight for their loved ones.

I must be strong
So that the pain might be less
And they might help win the war.

Happy Valentines Day

Roses are red,
So is wine,
Lets open a bottle
And have sexy time!

Emotions

Shaking
shaking
shaking hands.
Can't bring myself to speak
to type the words
to get you.
Tears
tears
tears falling.
Only coming in the night
in the dark
in the emptiness.
Screaming
screaming
screaming desperation.
Hidden in plain sight
in the words
in the laughter.